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Es lohnt sich nicht zu leben – Yang Ze

八月 17, 2009

Es lohnt sich nicht zu leben – Yang Ze (1990)

Es lohnt sich nicht zu leben.
Früher, vielleicht
hatte ich eine böse Ahnung.
Früher, vor dem jungen bewegenden,
bewegenden Tier auf deiner Haut,
vor dem Papayabaum im Dunkel
des in seiner Höhe perfekten Balkons und der Sterne,
und vor der Nacht – der Nacht der Zauberflöte
und des Einhorns, die allen Liebenden angehört –
wenn die Zauberflöte schrillt,
schrillt durch die Zimmer, dann wird sie kühler,
dann kehrt das Horn zu jenem letzten,
zu jenem ersten Morgengrauen der Steppe zurück …

Es lohnt sich nicht zu leben.
Früher hatte ich schon diese Ahnung.
Früher war ich noch nicht relativ
und du warst noch nicht absolut – ehrlicher,
tapferer Liebesinstinkt wilder Hasen
und dann dieses (hochgradig zweifelhafte)
widersprüchliche Temperament
mit der Tendenz zum Gefühlvollen,
mit der Tendenz zum Tempo,
mit der Tendenz von der Illusion her
zu ein wenig Besessenheit und Wahn –

Es lohnt sich gar nicht zu leben.
Früher, noch vor den Büchern,
vor der Musik und der Malerei – ganz am Anfang
hatte ich schon eine dunkle Ahnung.
Grünes Licht und blaue Rosen,
Joints und Zen.
Ich träumte von dir: Mofa-Mädchen
macht einen kopflosen Reiter auf einem Bild nach,
mit deiner dichten schwarzen Mähne rast du
ins Morgengrauen über der Steppe …
Wenn die Zauberflöte schrillt
bis sie kalt geworden ist –
Liebe und Tod sind ein Zaubertrank, zweifellos
wie der Sonnenuntergang auf dem Meer
ewig wie Gewalt und Wahn …

Es lohnt sich nicht zu leben.
Bevor die laufende Elefantenherde am Ufer,
das Meer und der ferne Himmel zusammen alt werden:
düster leckt das junge Tier seine Wunden,
nur um deine früheste und deine letzte
Sentimentalität zu bewahren,
bin ich bereit, den Griff für die Klinge zu halten,
als ein unermüdlicher,
tausendmal besiegter Krieger
wie ein Murmeltier, so will ich
gerne fleißig weiterleben,
obwohl vor deinen Illusionen,
vor meinem Nichts, vor deiner
Höhle, und meinem Licht –
obwohl es sich nicht lohnt zu leben.

MW August 2009 übersetzt

 

人生不值得活的 – 楊澤 (1990)

人生不值得活的。
稍早,也許
我就有了不祥的預感。
稍早,早於你幼獸般
動人動人的花紋,早於
暗中的木瓜樹
高度完美的陽台與星
早於夜晚–屬於所有情人的
魔笛和獨角獸底夜晚;
當魔笛吹徹
魔笛終因吹徹小樓而轉涼
號角重返那最後
與最初的草原黎明……

人生不值得活的。
稍早,我便有了如此預感。
稍早,早於我的相對
你的絕封―野兔般
誠實勇敢底愛欲本能
還有那(讓人在在難以釋懷)
駁雜不純的氣質
傾向感傷,傾向速度
也傾向,因夢幻而來的
一點點耽溺與瘋狂

人生並不值得活的。
更早,早於書本
音樂及繪畫―一開始
我就有了暗暗的預感。
綠光和藍薔薇
大麻煙捲與禪
我夢見你:電單車的女子
模仿固畫裡的無頭騎士
拎著一頭黑濃長髮,朝
草原黎明疾馳離去……
當魔笛再度吹徹
魔笛終因吹徹而轉寒
愛與死的迷藥無非是
大海落日般–
一種永恒的暴力
與瘋狂……

人生不值得活的。
在岸上奔跑的象群
大海及遠天相偕老去前:
暗舔傷口的幼獸哪
只為了維護
你最早和最終的感傷主義
我願意持柄為鋒
作一名不懈的
千敗劍客
土撥鼠般,我將
努力去生活
雖然,早於你的夢幻
我的虛無;早於
你的洞穴,我的光明―
雖然,人生並不值得活的。

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Urumqi and Kashgar

八月 4, 2009

Ana Escobedo, founder of the Facebook Cause Save Kashgar, has written a blog article for Saving Antiquities. It can be found at http://safecorner.savingantiquities.org/2009/08/saving-kashgar.html. I like Ana’s article very much, and I have great respect for her dedication. As Ana suggests, it is apparent that a lack of awareness for cultural heritage is directly connected to the social problems behind the July 5 incident. There is a lack of respect for culture that goes back to the Cultural Revolution and earlier. Tianjin is being destroyed, too, like many, many culturally rich places in China. There is no “rational” progress behind much of the demolition, but it’s always a great step forward for the developing companies and the party secretaries in their pay. Yes, many old streets and houses in many cities were in a sorry condition due to decades of neglect. It’s not easy to renovate them. Beijing has finally begun to rebuild some courtyard houses. At the same time they tore down the whole Qianmen area at the south of Tian’anmen Square and replaced it with a sort of Disneyland. Protests and suicides because of the demolitions in various cities have been in the news for years. In China, Southern Weekend (Nanfang Zhoumo) and other media have often reported on housing and cultural heritage problems. Most of the time they are allowed to do that. They cannot report on the arrest of dissidents such as Prof. Ilham Tohti of Central Nationalities University in Beijing. He has been detained since August 8. Amnesty International has issued an appeal for writing petitions in English and Chinese to the Chinese Prime Minister and other figures, because Prof Tohti has not been heard of since his arrest, raising fears for his health. Cases of torture and death in police custody are not unheard of in many parts of China (and other countries, of course). See http://www.chinafreepress.org/publish/Othernews/Petition_for_Ilham_Tohti_under_detention_presented_by_Wang_Lixiong.shtml, or http://bit.ly/q3BX4.
Yes, I think that Ana is right, raising awareness is crucial. One thing that has been lacking on the Uyghur support groups side is an outspoken condemnation of the massive looting and killing on July 5th in Urumqi. Yes, the demonstrations may have been peaceful in the beginning, just like in Lhasa last year, and maybe the police could have prevented them from turning violent, or maybe they could have at least contained them. And yes, thousands of Uyghurs have been arrested, some have been killed, and no one knows how many of them didn’t have any connection to the violence at all. But still: Both the Dalai Lama and Mrs. Rebiya Kadeer should have condemned the looting and killing in Lhasa and in Urumqi. The Dalai Lama said he prayed for victims on all sides, but that’s not enough. And the Uighur support groups such as Save Kashgar should have swiftly and loudly condemned the massive looting and killing by Uyghurs. Instead, Ana told us on Facebook that many Uyghurs may have died in Urumqi. Just that, as far as I have noticed. It was the same lack of awareness that was apparent after the Lhasa riot last year. So maybe there is a lack of awareness on both sides. Anyway, let us try to help in any way we can think of. Unfortunately, social websites such as Facebook and Twitter and their Chinese equivalents have been widely blocked and closed in China. The blocking of Facebook was said to be in response of aggressive Uighur support groups. They were mostly not aggressive at all, but they did fail to condemn the Uyghur looting and killing. As I have mentioned, Chinese media and intellectuals are sometimes able to speak out against social and cultural problems. Sometimes Chinese intellectuals in China can speak out in the international media and get noticed. See Asia Times (7/8/09): http://www.atimes.com/atimes/China/KG08Ad02.html, Ghost of Marx haunts China’s riots, By Jian Junbo. We concerned individuals and groups outside of China should support these efforts, and at the same time help to show the connection to Human Rights cases. And we should have condemned the Uyghur looting and killing first, and/or more loudly. The more we show our awareness on this side, the more we are credible on all sides. I never understood why Abu Ghraib was not raised as a central question by the Democrats in the 2004 US election. Where is the connection, you might ask. At least we have Obama now. Well, I think we have to look at and work on the most painful questions on our side first, whoever we are. Yes, I am on the side of Kashgar Old City. And on the side of minorities in my home country Austria. Maybe I should have cited a painful problem in Austria’s contemporary history. We certainly don’t have a shortage there. Anyway, I like Ana’s article very much, and I have great respect for her work. Let us continue writing and signing petitions, and most importantly, like Ana says, raising awareness. Peace!


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